“Why, God?”
Light breaking through the clouds — a reminder that God meets us in the questions.
There are moments in life when the questions come faster than the answers. When the ground shifts beneath your feet and all you can do is look up and whisper, “Why, God?”
I’ve had two of those moments.
The first came when I was twenty‑two — young, pregnant, and suddenly alone. I remember standing in the middle of that loss, asking God questions I didn’t even have language for. Why did this happen? Why now? Why me? I didn’t get answers then. I just learned how to breathe again.
The second moment came decades later, on a day that should have been filled with joy — my daughter’s wedding day. Instead, I found myself living through another unthinkable loss. My husband. Another sudden tragedy. Another wave of questions I never imagined I’d ask again.
Why twice? Why on her wedding day? Why drowning? Why didn’t You heal him when I prayed? Why didn’t You raise him when I laid hands on him?
These weren’t theological questions. They were the raw, gut‑level cries of a heart that had been shattered before and was being shattered again.
And here’s the truth: God didn’t give me the explanations I begged for.
But He did give me something else — something I didn’t know I needed.
He gave me His presence.
In both losses, God met me in the middle of the questions. Not with answers, but with Himself. Not with reasons, but with comfort. Not with explanations, but with strength I didn’t have on my own.
I’ve learned that sometimes the “why” doesn’t get answered on this side of heaven. But the presence of God in the middle of the pain becomes the answer your heart can hold onto.
And that’s why I’m writing my story. Not because I have all the answers — I don’t. But because I’ve lived through the questions… and found God there.
If you’re in a season of asking “Why, God?” — I want you to know this: Your questions don’t scare Him. Your honesty doesn’t offend Him. And He will meet you right where you are, even if the answers haven’t come yet.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” — Psalm 34:18
